Get a life

GET A LIFE, BITCH.

YOU'RE NOTHING BUT JUST FULL OF SHITS.

PLEASE, GET THE HELL OUT OF MY LIFE.

Thanks.

Hardworking to Lazy

Oh, hello there.

Today, my dad took my report card at my school so yeah, my dad meet my class teacher, Madam Liew. She didn't say anything bad. Well, she did, actually. She said that I like to copy my friends work. That's so true. Haha. There's more but why should I say it? It's not really that important.

Here's my result:

Bahasa Melayu 75 B

Bahasa Inggeris 84 A

Sejarah 75 B

Geografi 73 B

Pendidikan Islam 87 A

Matematik 65 C

Sains 91 A

Kemahiran Hidup 66 C

Pendidikan Jasmani 74 B

Pendidikan Seni 59 D

Literasi Komputer 56 D

Pendidikan Sivik 82 A

Keputusan (Mencapai) : 4A4B2C2D

Jumlah Markah : 887

Peratus : 2.17

Kedudukan dalam kelas : 12/47

My marks are bad, right? I never got a D last year. Now, I changed. LIKEAHELLLOT. Hardworking to lazy. Well, that's normal, right?

Anyway, I took Japanese so, I have the certificate of my marks, too.

Writing & Listening 62 C

Oral 82 A

Attendance 93 A

As you can see, of course, my writing and listening got C. I failed the test that day, so yeah... No surprise. My oral wouldn't be A if Miss Lai who gave me the test. The other teacher did, from Japan. My attendance should be lower than 93 but hey, I got 93, I should be happy, I think.

That's it for now. Chiao!

Everything would be so much better without me

Hey, loves!

I'm going to Kota Kinablu tomorrow with my family which means I am going to skip school for a few days. Whoot! Actually, we're going to Labuan but we'll also spend some of our time in Kota Kinabalu. Everyone in school must be so happy I won't go to school for days, right? Everything would be so much better without me, trust me. I am just a ruiner of everyone's life. If I don't exist in world, it must be like heaven in here, right?

Sometimes, I wonder... Am I that important to someone? Am I the reason that someone is smiling? I always think it's a NO. Seriously, I am not important at all. I'm just a useless bitch who always add more problems to people. I hate myself for being that kind of person. I have to admit. I am not perfect and I made mistakes. Poor me. I am just a loser.

Kenapa aku tiba2 cakap pasal ni? Garghh. Forget it. I seriously need to get a life right now.

Bye peeps!

Never trust anyone easily

Hey, there.

It's TUESDAY. It's Tuesday, Tuesday, Tuesday. Gotta get down on Tuesday. Today is the Wesak Day so we're having a holiday today. I'm glad today is holiday, if not, damn, I'm going to be crazy like hell which I always am with my teenage bullshit life.

Remember my old post yang yesterday punya? I talked about someone, right? That's on of my problems and last night, I just got a new one. I mean THREE problems. I seriously can't say it here because this blog is too public. Most of my problems are about friendship problems with girls. 'Of course. I'm not surprise at all. I always do just like my sisters. I know it's my fault. I get that. It's my own fault for trusting people easily. I know I shouldn't tell anyone about it but I did because I am stupid. NEVER TRUST ANYONE EASILY EVEN THOUGH YOU CLOSE WITH HER/HIM. If you do, then dia pergi buat something you never expected, memang kecewa habislah. Then, kau sakit hati. So, that's why, jangan terlalu trust orang. Nanti siapa yang kecewa? Kau sendiri juga kan?

I have a lot of problems now. I seriously need to stop thinking about the problems but I just can't. I keep on thinking how to solve these problems but, I just don't have trust in me anymore because, every time I do something that I think is right, it will end up something bad. I need to trust myself. Trust yourself, Zeeyqa! If I don't trust myself, I'll be weak which I don't and I am not because I don't want to. If you're weak, people will think that you're a coward. Do you want to think people you like that? If they think you like that, people can hurt you easily because they know you're weak. That's why you have to be strong. Don't be a coward. But don't do revenges. Just be strong and face all your problems with a big smile on your face. Kill all the people that give you problems with kindness. That's the best revenge ever. Aku ni cakap2 jak tapi aku tak buat. LOL! I usually do revenges, actually... not by smiling but making their own life miserable. Don't follow me. When you do revenges, you'll end up hurting yourself. Trust me. I faced it before.

Anyway, I seriously disappointed at someone. (S)he trusts other person instead of me? WOW. Awesomenya dapat jumpa dengan orang begitu. I know, you're closer with the OTHER PERSON instead of me but, hey, who am I again? Fikir bah! I trust you and you don't trust me? WOW. Bagus perangai but it's okay. I'm used to this. I faced the same thing before last year. Memang kau sama jak sama dia. Wuuttever lah. I won't give a fuck about it juga.

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I'm tumblr-ing right now, as usual. The place for me to express my feelings when I'm sad, happy, or wuuuttsoever. I saw some awesome quotes. Here, check it out:

People are always gonna try to bring you down below them, but smile when they're staring & show 'em who's strong.

Hey. Stuff happens. People will change. Your best friend will become your worst enemy. You will fall to pieces, and wish you never existed. You'll have new regrets and new mistakes. You'll fall in love, and he'll break your heart. You'll argue, and cry yourself to sleep. There will be some days when you can't drag yourself out of bed. You'll look in the mirror and hate what you see. But things will get better. Every time you fall down, you get back up. You grow up a little more with each mistake. And no matter how hard it may seem, remember that this is only a chapter of your life. Life goes on.

One who truly loves you will never try to make you jealous, cause he knows how to value loyalty more than jealousy.

Just check my tumblr, for more, alright? :D

Okay, bye.

I'm getting tired of being like this

Do you ever meet someone that you really trust and respect and the person does the same to you, too but then, suddenly, (s)he betray you? You don't? But, that's kind of impossible. Mesti kau akan jumpa orang macam tu but not right now. One day, you will. Just get ready with it.

I met that kind of person. ALWAYS. I guess, sudah ditakdirkan hidup aku begini. Apa boleh buat kan? It's okay. Sabar jak lah. But, right now. I seriously don't get why (s)he is like that. Seriously. And, yes. I'm talking about someone. Kalau kau baca ni blog dan kau terasa, maksudnya kau lah tu. Siapa yang termakan cili, dia yang akan rasa pedas. I can't believe you're doing this to me but yeah, I already heard some stories about you, so I am not really that surprise. Hmm. And, I'm used to all these shits, anyway.

Mulut tu jaga la sikit. Kalau cakap tu, jangan main cakap jak. Fikir dulu. It hurts me when you said that but I pretend it doesn't because if I say that you hurt my feeling, nanti kau cakap aku mahu perhatian orang jak kan? Aku tahu kau lah babe. The littlest thing you say can hurt people's feelings. Remember that, sweetie. I don't even want to get people's attention 'cause it sucks being one.

Makin lama, makin ramai pula orang back stab aku sekarang. I really can't stand like this anymore. I seriously feel like I want to move to other school. If I can, I want to go far away from here. I'm getting tired of people giving me shits all the times. I know I'm not that important to you but, please don't do those kind of shits to me. Yes, I know, I was being such a bitchy bitch but do you think you're good enough? People make mistakes. I know I ain't perfect. I'm sorry for being one. If I could, I want to be a perfect one but I just can't because us, human beings can't never be perfect.

So emo-ish punya post la this. Oh, wait. Memang my posts selalu emo pun because I write this blog when I'm upset. Hmmm. I just can't stand being like this. I feel like I want to give up everything. :( Yes, EVERYTHING. You know what it means. My life, my friends... everything. I'm getting tired of being like this.

Going to be a lonely girl

Exam is finally over. Woot! Aren't you excited, Sung Siew's? And a few more days until mid year holidays. I just can't wait. Did I just say I can't wait for it? OH, yeah, I did. To be honest, I don't like it. I don't like to be alone in this not-so-fun house. My sisters continue their studies outside of this small town, Sandakan. Do you know fucking lonely I will be this mid year holidays?! UGH! I hate being lonely. I know, I usually hate people most of the time but to be honest, I like it much more when I'm with my two lovely sisters who are so bossy but no matter what, I will always love them. I LOVE YOU, SISTERS! Dramatic sangat la aku ni.

UGH. What am I going to do this mid year holidays? Hang out with my friends all the time? Melepak sana sini di Sandakan? Puh-lease. Sandakan ni kecil. Tiada tempat mau lepak. I'm getting bored in Sandakan. I wish I'll move one day from Sandakan and I'll be back here after Sandakan sudah maju. Haha! Sangat lah lupa diri aku ni.

I'm so going to be a lonely girl who seems to have no life at all this mid year holidays. I know, you won't really agree with me about being so lonely because I have a boyfriend. Well, you're wrong. I always feel lonely even though I have a boyfriend. I don't know why. Well, I do but I ain't gonna say it here. Plus, my boyfriend isn't in the same house as me. So, yeah, this mid year holidays, I'll be so lonely. Hello LONELY mid year holidays!

Damn. Damn. Damn.

WHY MY LIFE ARE SO MISERABLE NOWADAYS? Maybe sudah ditakdirkan, 2011 is the year where my miserable-ness start. Oh, wait. Sebelum 2011, memang my life sudah miserable pun. Hmmm. Yeah, yeah. Life. Gotta get used to everything in life.

Well, I gotta go now. Bye!

Happy Mother's Day

Hello!

First of all, I want to say HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY TO ALL THE MUMS IN THIS WORLD especially MY MUM.

Sorry if sometimes I'm disobeying you. Sorry if I'm not a perfect child and sometimes, I lied to you. Sorry if I've shouted at you or sometimes in the back of my head, I almost wanted you to be gone when you yell at me and scold at me. Sorry if I'm hardheaded. Sorry if sometimes I'm lazy, that I don't do chores sometimes. Sorry for everything I did wrong.

But I thank you for making me live in this planet, cause without you, I'm not going to be here. Thank you for feeding me, taking care of me, sheltering me and loving me. Thank you for giving me the best things in life even it's hard. Thank you for teaching me the right things and manners. Thank you mom.

Don't worry, I'll take care of you, too when you're old. And the things that you taught me, I'll always keep in my brain because I know, you don't want me to be at worst. I am guilty for all. You're very important to me like a pearl that I really treasure.

I love you MOM! I'll make you proud soon.

I didn't buy anything for my mum because I'm lack of money. Damn. Ini lah akibatnya kalau ada boyfriend. You're going to spend your money with credits just to text your boyfriend.

Well, I guess that's it for now. K, bye!

Craziness is taking my world

New haircut! My hair is shorter now. =)

You will never stop talking shits about me

Oh, haiii! Been a long time I didn't update this blog, right? Yeah, I'm pretty busy controlling my laziness! Anyway, there were lots of things happened including the thing that I never expected would happen. But, yeah, it's life. Nothing is impossible.

Anyway...

Do you ever feel having friends but then someone told you that your friends were back stabbing you but your friends don't know that you know that they were back stabbing you and then you have to pretend that you still want to be their friends but actually you feel like you want to fuck them? Do you? WOW! Same here. Whenever I'm with them, I try to smile but actually I really want to show my middle finger to them. But, selagi aku boleh tahan perasaan ku, selagi tu la aku akan hide my feelings. Siapa yang baca ni & dia terasa,maksudnya kau lah tu, kan? ;) But, if you read this, and kau tidak terasa langsung pun, baguslah tu. Aku ndak suruh kau terasa pun kan? xD

To people who've been back stabbed by their own friends:

If people has something bad to say about you, it's probably because they have nothing good to say about themselves.

Bye.